Interviews: Feeling Worthless

On this new occasion, we have had the opportunity to interview the Depressive Black Metal/Black Metal band, Feeling Worthless from Mexico/Venezuela. Check out the interview and follow the band on their FACEBOOK PAGE.

1. Where did you get the idea for the band name, you planned it or came out just like that?

Xinx: Feeling Worthless is approximately 7 or 8 years old since it was born as an unfinished idea. I lived in Venezuela at that time and I liked to consume a lot of material from national bands. He was a fan of bands like Epitafio, Noxius, Krueger, Maskhera and Osteoporosis Aguda; this band helped me out of a hole where I saw no way out.

It was a mixture between hardcore punk and black metal, they had two incredible albums and one of them is where my favorite song "Feeling Worthless" comes out, which I swore one day would be the name of my own band. To this day I have a good friendship with the members of the group and I thank them for letting me use that name that represents everything it means to feel useless.

2. Why did you want to play this genre?

I was young and, like every human being, I wanted to identify myself with something and, at the same time, make others feel identified.

Suicide, depression, anxiety, insecurity are issues that are experienced every day and that people do not want to see. My best friend committed suicide a few years ago and I couldn't do anything, maybe it's not my fault but that mark will remain there forever and that's what I want my audience to understand, it's a real problem that exists and we don't want to see.

Xinx: We also seek to create music that people can relate to and know they are not alone in their suffering (Xinx).

Witchlord: I'm certainly more of a Death Metal fan (Witchlord clarifies) but once I got to know the work of my wonderful colleagues I didn't doubt for a moment that their sound is very unique and I wanted to be part of the atmosphere they create.

(Carlos Toledo "Doctor T"): it took me a long time to define what I wanted in my music, I had never known the genre of black metal but when I listened to certain albums I fell completely in love with the genre and I also fell in love with all the variations that has that genre which gave me the philosophy to compose a different sound in each song.

3. Did you know each other before the band was formed?

Carlos Toledo (Doctor T) and I met online for a long time, we talked from time to time and shared interests, it was not until the recruitment of members for Feeling Worthless that our friendship would materialize as something lasting.

Our current drummer Alan Cruz (Witchlord) is relatively new to the band and to our circle of friends, but the truth is that in the past year he has become one of the people we most appreciate and respect for his talent and way of being.

4. Each band member's favorite band?

Xinx - Deafheaven, Autumn Nostalgie, Apati, and Fyr.

Doctor T - Soundgarden, Skin Yard, Failure and Deafheaven

Witchlord - Igorrr, Devildriver, Septicflesh, and Vintersorg

5. Who or what inspires you to write songs?

Xinx: Life and its misfortunes, the experiences, the marks and traumas of childhood, my insecurities, the injustices that I have to endure daily, everything that surrounds me is the muse of my songs.

Doctor T: My inspirations will always be artists that make me say how did they get to do that riff? (but not because of how fast, or because of technical things) I look more at the freedom to do what they wanted and see that passion is felt when playing even if it is basic or difficult to play and that Jack Endino thing fascinates a lot , Dean DeLeo and Chris Cornell who will always be an inspiration to me, my goal in my songs is for people to a trip inside them.

Witchlord: Mainly I am very inspired by what happens around me and I try to release that feeling through sounds and letters, often being a self-criticism where I seek to constantly improve myself both physically and emotionally.

6. Where was your last gig?

Feeling Worthless currently has not had the pleasure of sharing with an audience due to the fact that each member is in different parts of Mexico and the United States, so live performance is ruled out for now.

7. Where would you like to act?

In any part of the world where there is someone who wants to listen to us, as long as they love us and enjoy the music we are happy.

8. Whom would you like to feature with?

Xinx: With any band, we have always been very open to collaborating with other musicians, personally I would be very excited to play with Nocturnal Depression or Deafheaven.

Witchlord: For me, it would be a great honor to be together with Emperor, Behemoth, and Belphegor, although a great dream for me is to share the stage with Igorrr.

Doctor T: With any band that wants to socialize with us.

9. Whom not?

No one, in particular, in any collaboration or scenario is well received.

10. Have any of you ever suffered from stage fright? Any tip for beginners on how to beat that?

Xinx: The times I've played in other groups or collaborated live I always feel this chill down my back that tells me to behave, that there are people expecting more from me than I from them. I always try to be dynamic with people so that they also participate in the presentation, that they enjoy it, and have a good experience. My advice: don't think about it, make a fool of yourself, laugh, and don't stop learning.

Witchlord: Close your eyes, take a deep breath and let the wind out slowly while I let my muscles relax just as you go up, and every time you feel the panic come back do it and be sure that even if you fail you will still sound good because you are doing the best of you.

I just don't think about how they're going to see me instead of that I think that I'm standing on a stage to play for people who come to enjoy our music and have a great trip in the songs, which excites me more than the fear of "what will they say".

11. What bands have inspired you the most?

Trist, Bosque, Silencer, Bethelem, Morbid, Burzum, Mayhem, Happy Days, Apati, Lifelover, Vanhelga, Intig, Dreariness, Nocturnal Depression, Nargaroth, Nyktalgia, Katatonia, Beyond of Desolation, Osteoporosis Aguda, Epitafio, Vintersorg, Igorrr, Dying Fetus, Lamb Of God, Septicflesh, Corpo Mente, Soundgarden, Alice In Chains , Truly and many many more Bands haha.

12. What's the weirdest thing a fan has ever asked you for?

Doctor T: A punk player once approached me to tell me how much he loved the project and that he wanted me to teach him to play like me. We concluded a sample class and I lost contact, despite no longer seeing each other, I will always treasure the honor of having someone admire us to the degree of wanting to learn from us. 

Xinx: We have also received very curious material from the fans, including lyrics for us to use in our songs and once a follower gave us a photo of his amputated finger, which we ended up giving to Nozttalgy for his single "Anti-Life" where I had the pleasure of participating, I take advantage of sending greetings to Xipe for that great detail. 

Witchlord: A fan had to travel more than 3 hours just to have a beer and talk, and I don't regret a second, it's wonderful to be able to interact like that.

13. What do you think of your fans?

They are the beings for whom we look down and are grateful to be alive, thanks to them we are what we are and without so much support that they have given us we would not even be present, they are everything to us, since knowing that you can connect in this way is very motivating and that in one way or another we are helping them to let go of their sorrows and to continue being better people.

14. What do you think of our site?

I think this platform is awesome and the support they offer to the bands is excellent. Any medium that has the task of disseminating art and culture to others is an excellent space to nurture musical knowledge and expand the library. The truth is that words fall short to say how much we admire your work and the honor it represents to be here.

15. Something to add?

Never forget to ask for help when you need it, even from us if you want it. Live your life as if it were the last day, enjoy yourself no matter what others say, follow your dreams even if it's the last thing you do.

That they love every detail and value the smallest cell of human warmth in their hearts, that they listen to our new album.

Never let it get you down if they ever snub your music, since they themselves are making themselves known to people who despise the art of others, You should be grateful for the people who tell you that they despise your music, since you will know who are bad for your life and you need to get away from them, always look for people who bring you something good in your life and you to them in their lives.

May Ixtab be with Us.