Track By Tracks: TheCityIsOurs - Will You Still Love Me? (2025)


1. Shame:

Shane was written about the feeling of not being able to accept aspects of yourself that can't be changed, making you feel that you don't belong anywhere. It affects every way in which you navigate through life and won't leave you until you come to terms and embrace it.

2. In the dark:

Is about building up a wall to keep yourself safe by creating a fake image of yourself to make your family happy, growing up being told by society that I'd always be a disappointment because of my sexuality, something I can't control. So I'd try to hide it and do anything to not cause any sort of disappointment in anything that I can control.

The Pressure of upholding that image builds up to a point where it feels like you can't go back and completely shatter your own family's perception of you.

No matter how much I'd planned it out and got to a point where I was going to tell them, nothing would ever come out which would make me feel guilty because my life was a lie to people who are supposed to love you unconditionally. And no matter how irrational I knew the fear of telling them was and how frustrated with myself I'd get for not being able to tell them, I could never get the words out.

Your friends and potentially people who barely know you still know you more than family, which isn't fair. feels like you can't progress as a person as you condition yourself to keep your walls built up, unable to let anyone in.

3. Hot mess:

Lived closeted and trying to convince me that you'll be able to live the rest of my life hiding but as time went on I felt my world starting to crash around me, the crushing realization that if I told my family about my sexuality I might hurt them but if I don't I also realize that'll I'll never be happy and eventually die alone, unable to really connect with anybody, relationship and even friendship wise as I'll always have a wall up unless I give every single aspect of my whole being to them.

You’ve just heard sugar from our new album Wyslm, you’re about to listen to track 5, dopamine

4. Sugar:

About me always self-sabotaging potential relationships, always going to start something but then freaking out about any sort of affection as I’m so used to being closed shut to people because of years of not being able to have a relationship due to being the closet, it was just ingrained in my head that I'm not allowed one. Knowing in the back of my mind when I start to pursue any sort of relationship with someone that I’ll probably ruin it in the end by freaking out and distancing myself from it, but still pursue it even though I know that it’s not fair on the other half, which I know is selfish. The song touches on going through that journey and how to fix/navigate those tendencies.

5. Dopamine:

Dopamine is about the first time I went to a queer space. I've always felt like I was a hermit who hated going out, but the first time I'd gone to a queer place I'd never experienced the feeling of being able to let my guard down in public, being surrounded by people like me being completely unapologetic about who they are. it also reflects on me always feeling a bit lonely or a bit disconnected when going somewhere like the pub with friends because I feel I've conditioned myself to keep my guard up most of the time, jealous of other people being able to have no inhibitions in most aspects of their social lives. The song touches on Coming to the realization that when I leave that safe space, my day-to-day life will probably feel a bit greyer in comparison. The main point of "Dopamine" is about savoring the moments where you're able to let your guard down and feel 100% comfortable and celebrating people's safe spaces, whether it be somewhere like a queer space, the gym, a book club, or at a gig!

6. Freak like you:

Freak like you is for the people who are never afraid to be 100% themselves, no matter how weird, loud, boisterous, feminine or queer they are. As they were always a light at the end of the tunnel for me growing up. I was made fun of growing up any time any sort of flamboyancy or queerness showed and it was ingrained into me to be as quiet and hide it as much as possible to avoid any sort of teasing which has been hard to break off from and is still something I'm working on. But I'd like to end up being that person for someone younger, or anybody who is ashamed of their sexuality can look to who was feeling the same as me growing up

7. Work it out (If You Let Me):

Is about me being so used to not ever being in a proper relationship and not really knowing how to open myself up to the possibility of one. It’s a back-and-forth between me and a friend, in this instance, it’s me and Mikey, him helping me navigate a lack of connection to people because I’m too scared to let my guard down, which was finally starting to show up in my confidence in my everyday life with everyone, friends, family and not just romantic relationships.

8. Hush! Hush!:

Is about the first time coming out to my best friend. I was in a place where I was seeing all of my friends being in, what seemed to be, proper relationships at the time and always asking me if I liked anyone and I was just miserable, sick, and tired of lying. So the lyrics were just what was going through my head before telling them. The guilt I felt that they might think that I thought they wouldn’t want me to be a part of their life anymore so I had to make sure they knew that wasn’t the case and wasn’t anything they did and the guilt that I was lying. I wanted them to make sure they didn’t need to worry and I didn't want to be a burden to them anymore. I wanted to finally be able to give my whole self to them like they have been the whole time we’ve been friends, otherwise our friendship isn’t fair on them.

9. Psycho:

Psycho is calling out the ultra-religious, bigoted people always blaming LGBTQ people for all the problems in the world. Using us as scapegoats to distract and hide the problems inside their communities. Pushing them to look inward and fix their problems before making up issues to do with us.

10. I See You:

Is for the people that are feeling alone because there’s no one like them, whether it be their gender or sexuality. It’s a message saying that we’ll always be there for them and, as cliche as it sounds, it’ll get better. If they need to hide to keep themselves safe, then they should do it but to never lose who they are and change who they are fundamentally as you will always find your tribe in the end.

11. Can You Feel It?:

It is about the liberation you feel when you can finally trust you know who you are no matter what naysayers are saying or doing. To finally feel comfortable in your own skin and no one can tell you otherwise.

12. Enough:

This is where we got the title “Will You Still Love Me?” for the album.

Was what was going through my head whilst trying to figure out how to come out to my family, more specifically my mother. It covers the fact that all preconceived plans that your family could’ve made for you like having a child and carrying on the family probably won't happen anymore, so you have to give your family time to grieve what could’ve been .Touching on the main fear of coming out that sometimes something as silly as your sexuality can make you lose your family. It’s a fear that was running through my mind since my early teens, maybe earlier, so when that ruminates through your mind for close to a decade, the thought of them finding out is petrifying, so all you can do is hope that your love for them is strong enough for it to be unconditional towards you.

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